My Journey

This past year has been the most difficult time of my life. And at this point, it's still not getting any easier. I pray every day that my heart will heal and the joy of life will return. I'm a different person than I was a year ago and I will never return to the person I once was. My life was good, actually better than I thought. Now, I would give anything to have just one of those days back. I wish I could have said good-bye.....I've learned this is called unfinished business. I have read several books just trying to find answers, anything to help me understand. My grief journey has led me down many paths. I have questioned my religion and tapped into spirituality. I feel like I have been on a journey to find my Son.....and I'm still on the path. I pray that he will come to me and tell me he's happy. As a parent, you just need to know your child is okay. My faith tells me he's in a good place but I miss the physical connection so much. No hugs, no smiles, no phone calls......nothing. I'm hoping this blog is a place for others to post their comments and together we can help each other heal.